8dp5dt

 No nausea this morning. Darn. But, today I have had a sour stomach for the last couple of hours. I feel like the acid it eating a whole in my stomach :( Luckily a  co-worker had Tums. I had this same feeling on Saturday, but I thought that was from not eating breakfast. Today I ate my usual workday breakfast (fruit flavored greek yogurt....pineapple to be more specific.) My guess is that this is either another side effect of the progesterone  or my obsessing/worrying is causing acid which is eating a whole in my stomach. 

I keep saying that I am not going to look at postings from others. I will not go to  thebump.com or google 8dp5dt or whatever day I am on, and I will trust in God for the next 5 days. But, I am unable to stay away from the internet. 

Also, I go back and forth about wanting to POAS. If I do, it will happen no sooner then Thursday (the day after tomorrow) that will be 10dp5dt. Than again, right now I don't know....maybe not knowing is better than knowing its negative is better. 

My cramping seems to be almost completely gone today. Not sure how I feel about that. So many have said that they have no symptoms, maybe it is good?? Someone at the office today microwaved popcorn and I thought it was a horrible smell. Most people might agree that it smells horrible, but I LOVE popcorn. If I could only eat 2 things it would be popcorn and soft serve. At first I thought someone just had stinky food, no big deal. But when I realized it was popcorn I think it might be a positive sign?? sigh!

 I have decided that Pinterest will be a helpful distraction to symptom searching on the internet. I think it will help about 1/2 of the time. 

7dp5dt

As I stood up from the bed this morning I felt nauseous and was happy. I know that this can just be another side effect of the progesterone, but it can also be morning sickness. I hope that the feeling is increased tomorrow! If it gets bad enough that I actually get sick I may call the RE's nurse to see if it could be a progesterone OD. Not that I actually think that is what it would be, but maybe I will get to come in for an early beta.

Another symptom that I didn't mention was thirst. I continuously have a drink next to me, which is completely abnormal and NOT a side effect of the progesterone, so far as I can tell :) Yay! 

4-6dp5dt

4dp5dt was another day of symptom searching without anything conclusive. I'm pretty sure, though, that all of my symptoms are from the progesterone (crinone 8%).

Today is 5dp5dt and a Saturday. DH thinks that it would be fun to go shopping for a family vehicle such as a mini van or, per my mom, the X5 SUV from BMW. But I can think of many other ways I would like too spend our money! Hopefully we have to buy diapers for two :)

Well, we did shop for a Honda Odyssey. Pretty nice....for a mini van. The sales guy asked if we had a big family :) We said that we are hoping for one! After lunch at  Sweet Tomatoes we went to Pottery Barn  Kids and looked at baby furniture. Yes, it was WAY too early. And ALL of the women in the baby area looked like they were going to pop  any minute. But, I didn't burst into tears and it was fun looking. THEN we went to Babys R Us because DH wanted to look at strollers....seriously. It was sweet. All and all it was fun and gave me a positive feeling. Some might think this could 'jinx' our chances, but I have put my faith into God and it is out of my hands. So I am unable to jinx our chances. Having faith has really helped me.

Okay, 3rd day of typing, maybe I will post today which is 6dp5dt. Last night I read: You can pray for anything, and if you have faith, you will receive it. Matthew 21:22 Of course, I prayed during my last IVF, but I did not have the faith that I do this time. Also, many from my church are also praying for us. I know they have faith. Knowing and believing brings me peace.

This morning I found some brown spotting. Of all of my symptoms (Headache, cramps, back ache, potty break every hour), this is the only one that I do not think is a side effect of the progesterone and makes me very happy.

3dp5dt

Here goes my first blog post. I have created other blogs in the past,  but this is sentence is as far as I have ever gotten in writing on it. The reason I have gone all the way with this one? It is an attempt to keep my sanity.  What do I mean by that? Well, I am in what is called my two week wait (2ww). For those who know what the 2ww is understand the potential loss of sanity. For those who do not, this is a time of waiting, over-analyzing, worrying, happieness, sadness, excitement and dispair all wthin a 10-minute period sometimes. 

Currently I am 3dp5dt in my second IVF cycle. My husband and I are both 32, he is normal (per the MD) I have PCOS and I am insulin resistant. We did 3 or 4 IUI's 2 years ago and did our first round of IVF last July. The RE retrieved 6 eggs, 3 fertilized. 2 embryos were good & the third was not maturing well. We decided to transfer all three. My first beta was 12, the second was 8. A chemical pregnancy. After saving enough money (neither insurance pays a dime for fertility treatment) we are trying again. 

So, as I previously stated, I am 3dp5dt. I am analyzing every little twitch. I have had cramps since the evening of 1dp5dt. Yesterday I started having reflux (more than normal). Today, my lower back started hurting. All of my symptoms could be early signs of pregnancy or side effects of the progesterone. Very frustrating.  I didn't realize that back ache was a side effect of progesterone, I thought that it was a symptom of pregnancy. Darn.